I am free. For a whole week. This is day four of actual freedom - well, as close as it comes. I’ve been preparing heartwarming, post rehearsal (or ‘sitting around all day’ in my case) dinners and have poured perhaps a little too much energy into that. Yesterday we had chicken and vegetable stew with biscuits, gravy and grits a la Cheshire cheese and pepperberry. Followed by some more of the butterscotch chocolate meringue kisses I made a day or two ago.
So freedom allows me time to do the things I want to do, like excessively complicated cooking. What I most want to do is, as ever, write. I even know what I want to write. On day one (ok, maybe day two) I made a list of possible creative projects with pros and cons for each and settled on my webseries. It is achievable, it has a solid idea as foundation and will eventually encourage collaboration. But my writing process is slow. It involves watching things I want my writing to be like, I’ve found. Originally I thought I was procrastinating (and there is an element of that) but actually the things I’ve watched have elements in common with my elusive project.
I started with lots of The Office Season 8. I have loved this series since partway through Season 1 (I believe that preceding phrase contains the definition of series and season for anyone like me who used to be confused). The thing I have always loved the most (and I love a lot of things about that show) is the blooper reel on the DVD boxsets. I do love bloopers in general but what I see in those snapshots is a group of friends having immense, intense amounts of fun. And it comes through in the show. That’s what I want - that fun, and a group of people having it.
I watched The League of Gentlemen’s Apocalypse. It is dark, it is postmodern, it shines a new light on characters you thought you knew and it comes from a group of people having a lot of fun together.
Today I watched Mirrormask. It is a flawed film set in a beautiful fantasy world from two of my favourite geniuses, Neil Gaiman and Dave McKean. I’m not looking to make a flawed project or anything so clearly focused on design but I do want the courage to make something very personal and let the fantasy live without explaining it.
During the days I’ve been watching these things I have been making notes and clearly making an intellectual mood for myself. Strangely, the other film I have laid out to watch is The Hurt Locker. Having not watched it yet, I don’t know how it fits in but I guess we’ll find out.